Monogatari Series - Volume 27 - Chapter 1.30

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“It’s been quite the long chat, hasn’t it?

“I’ve said a lot of preachy and explanatory things, but this and that and these and those are all in the past—the person that hates apologizing, that feels humiliated by bowing her head to others, is no longer me.

“The ayamarei, was it?

“Even if such an oddity did or didn’t exist, I believe I would have apologized to you, Koyomi, someday—the oddity phenomenon would be nothing more than a trigger to start things off, wouldn’t you say?

“My childhood days when I was sickly, my middle school days when I demonstrated my presence on the track team, my first and second year in high school when I was a closed-off young lady, and my third year in high school when I’d been rehabilitated—ultimately, all of those were me.

“The fact that I am me can’t be changed.

“After entering university, I’ve been thinking I might even be able to apologize to my mother, and not just the crab, but maybe four years later, when I’ve become a working adult, I might end up thinking of that sentiment as embarrassing, writhe in pain, and forget it ever happened.

“Is talking about that sort of dark history something you would talk about with your good friend, Ononoki Yotsugi-san?

“Or perhaps—the one who makes up your other side, Oshino Ougi-san?

“If it’s not just dark, but wrapped in darkness.

“Anyway, let’s wrap up this absurd talk about breaking up—and quickly move on to the next topic of discussion.

“Which is, for me, the real issue.

“Koyomi, I don’t remember being told about the episode of you moving next door to Sodachi-chan… If you’re okay with me, I’ll hear you out, all right?”