Seven Unfortunate Lifetimes, All Thanks to a Single Moment of Impulse - Chapter 32

Chapter 32

Edited by renderedreversed

Chapter 32

When we arrived at the camp, it was already midnight . Jingyang, which was occupied by Wei Country’s army, was only twenty miles away . The moment Chu Kong arrived at the camp, he began preparing for the war . I lied in the general’s tent, clutching my belly, and rested with a peaceful heart .

Outside the tent, everyone was busy . I didn’t need to move a finger . I felt significantly happier . This was really what I wanted to pursue in life, ah .

With the state my body was in, I wasn’t suitable to live with the other soldiers . So, I had been sleeping in the general’s tent . At night, I slept with the general . During the day, Chu Kong was so busy that even his shadow couldn’t be seen . Thus, I also slept inside his tent . Not long after, there was a rumor about the general liking a man, and he couldn’t even bear to be separated from him when going to a war . In my heart, I felt wronged for the deceased general Chu Qinghui . This was really called not protecting someone’s name .

Every day, I was too relaxed . Chu Kong sat all day beside his candle thinking about war tactics . He forgot about escaping and I also accidentally forgot about it…

Donning armor seemed to make him more serious . He looked a lot like Lu Hai Kong from the first lifetime . That lifetime, Lu Hai Kong had been saddled with a blood feud . Not even a half smile ever made its way to his face in polite company . He pretended to be mature at such a young age, so much so that he alienated himself from his peers and was difficult to get close to . Every time I thought about him trying to walk with a straight back, I couldn’t help but sigh . Even now, it was the same .

Back then, I didn’t know how to be hurt for other people . I didn’t give Lu Hai Kong comfort . Not even once . Now, I was afraid that it was still the same .

In daylight, Chu Kong would arrange military affairs in the barracks . I’d sit quietly outside the tent and watch him . When the moon took over the sky, he’d frown while staying up all night . I’d lie on the bed and stare blankly at him . It was such a strange fate . They were the same person and not the same person . Whenever I thought that that person had disappeared from this world completely, he’d occasionally appear again in this form before me . I was almost unable to tell who was Chu Kong and who was Lu Hai Kong .

What also made me so confused that I couldn’t tell them apart was my present feelings for Chu Kong . Were they left by silly Xiang, or was it that my heart had moved inadvertently? Either way, there was one thing I had no way of…denying .

Silly Xiang from the previous lifetime depended on Shifu like how she depended on air to live . Such feelings of dependency were bone-deep, stewing in the marrow and flooding through the veins . They couldn’t get out anymore . Hiding behind him, tugging at his sleeves would give me a sense of security . Was I myself, or was I silly Xiang? I couldn’t tell anymore . Maybe this was something that wasn’t completely clear . I was me; that fool was also me .

A “pu” sound came from where Chu Kong was sitting at his desk . He put down his brush, turned his head, stared at me, and said, “I’ve been wanting to ask you since yesterday’s yesterday: did I steal your meat or did I not give you a bed to sleep at night, or what? Why have you been staring at me with that gloomy expression on your face all day and all night?”

I looked at him blankly . My soul hadn’t yet returned to my body, but my mouth, which somehow still worked, asked: “Tell me, how can you fall in love with someone?”

Chu Kong was surprised by my question and stayed quiet for a while . In the end, he ferociously spat: “How the fuck would I know?!”

He seemed like he really hated my question .

Still, I wondered . “Don’t you like me? Come on, say it . What do you like about me? How did you fall in love with me?”

Chu Kong crushed the brush in his hand, shattering it with a “pu” sound . He gritted his teeth and said, “Don’t push your luck . ”

“So you also don’t know . ”

I felt a sense of loss . In the end, for what reasons would you fall in love with someone…?

That day in the dark cave flashed through my mind . Chu Kong’s ambiguous and hoarse voice blowing in my ear, making it all hot and itchy . My ears were growing hot all over again at the memory . I was silent for a while . The whole tent went silent, actually . Suddenly, I heard Chu Kong lightly cough . I looked up and saw him picking up the brush again, dipping it in the ink despite it being significantly shorter from his earlier outburst .

“Don’t you know?” he asked . “Once…you’ve already fallen in love once . With Lu Hai Kong . Why did you fall in love?”

Why did I fall in love with Lu Hai Kong? This question of his was really difficult for me . I pondered for a long time before I replied: “Probably because…he was easy to bully . ”

He let people bully him and didn’t resist one bit . I thought for a moment and then continued with, “Maybe it’s also because he was only gentle to me . ”

Thinking about the really tired Lu Hai Kong who still insisted on smiling in front of me, I couldn’t help the warm feeling bud familiarly in my chest . I smiled, but just as quickly, both the feelings and my smile soured . I buried my head in silence .

It took me a while to banish the rest of my emotions . I looked up and was surprised to see Chu Kong with a serious expression on his face . The complexity in his eyes said something I couldn’t understand .

I sighed . “You don’t need to be like that . I know he isn’t you . ”

Chu Kong blinked and hung his head . He leisurely wrote a few words on the paper, and then spoke again . “Don’t think that other people are as stupid as you . ”

He continued: “I always know who I am and who is me . ”

His words were too profound . They were beyond what I could understand . Still, I pondered on them for a while . I felt that discussing the topic of love with a man really wouldn’t give me any results . So, I changed the subject to something more sensible . “I didn’t see it before, but you also know how to go to war . You really played the character of the general well . ”

“There are many things you don’t know . ”

He glanced at me before resuming his usual prideful self .

“Before xiaoye worked for the Morning God, I was in the military . ”

I thought for a moment and then said, “Sounds about right . The only place you can find a god that can tolerate that temper of yours is there . ”

Chu Kong’s mouth twitched . “Go sleep . If we’re lucky, you’ll sleep to an early death . ”

I did as he wished . I closed my eyes, stretched my legs, wrapped myself in a quilt, and slept .

After surveying his army’s training for several days, Chu Kong finally put on his armor and headed for a decisive strike . I was left with a few soldiers to guard the food supplies . Naturally, I was left behind, while the others guarded the food . This wasn’t any different from a normal day, at least for me . It was just that the camp was a lot quieter now . I opened the curtain of the tent and didn’t see the busy Chu Kong’s shadow .

In the afternoon, fireworks could be heard from Jinyang city . It seemed that Chu Kong made quite a big shock . I was bored and brewed a pot of tea, stretching my legs and watching the sky as I sipped at it .

Suddenly, there was movement from where the soldiers were guarding the food . My heart went into panic . I hesitated a lot . Logically speaking, Chu Kong would probably only agree to go to the mountains if he wins this battle . He was too prideful to accept anything less . Since our fates were tied, helping him was helping myself, wasn’t it? So providing him a little help wasn’t wrong…

I hid a dagger, carried a sword in my hand, and quietly went over there . Surely enough, dozens of people in black were fighting with the soldiers guarding the food . Some of them took the opportunity to set fire to the supplies . You could see Jinyang’s fireworks from here; that meant that Jinyang could also see our black smoke from there .

This time, the backyard was on fire . War was an inevitable mess of morals . Chu Kong wanted to win; it may be difficult…

I was now a weak woman with a very weak body . I would be pulled off the ground with just a gust of wind . I had no ability to act recklessly . I could only hide behind a tent and carefully observe the people in black . Although they were dressed the same, there was always a leader . If he was killed, the others would be easy to handle .

I took a moment to observe them carefully . Thus, I was able to find out that these people in black were inconspicuously guarding a small person who they also obeyed the commands of . I chuckled in my heart . So it’s you .