Our Dating Story: The Experienced You and The Inexperienced Me - Volume 3 - Chapter 4.5

Chapter 4.5: Kurose Maria’s Diary

Kashima-kun’s so unfair.

I thought I could finally forget him. I came so close to all of it just becoming memories. But how can I forget when he’s so kind to me...?

Kashima-kun’s cruel.

He has no plans to choose me. I know that. He’s always looking only at Runa.

But still... When he concerns himself with me like this, even if it’s on a whim, I can’t stay calm. It makes me wonder if there’s a chance that even I could have someone love me.

Runa’s his number one. I know that.

But maybe, just maybe... Could I become his number two?

I’m sure Runa wouldn’t put up with that. If I was his number two, I mean. She might step aside instead and pretend like she and Kashima-kun were never an item.

It’s not like I want that to happen... I don’t want such an outcome...but my heart does. Deep in my heart, like a flower that blooms in the dark of night, I’m quietly hoping for it to happen.

I can’t do anything about it.

I’ll keep this tiny, bomb-like ambition locked away deep inside...but the fact that it’s there is what makes me feel like I’ll be able to get through another day of solitude.