My Sister the Heroine, and I the Villainess - Chapter 45

Chapter 45

Translator: Jawbrie

The blood rises to my face . It’s as if there is another heart inside of my head which is causing my bloodstream to panic . Just like the chaos of my blood flow, my reasoning was also in disarray .

“I’m glad . So you like me too . ”

Like . The word make my shoulders jump .

“Ssssshut up! Sh… . ut up, you idiot!”
“Idiot!?”

I chastised him as a reflex, but I was hardly coherent .
This was bad . I could tell that it wasn’t just my face, my neck was becoming red as well . The sound of my furiously beating heart was incredibly aggravating . I was about to fly into a panic over this new feeling . But it was not possible for me to be calm .
What was this?
My feelings had changed as if I had been reborn . I could barely keep up with it .
And now Charles’ angry face came right up to mine .

“Chris? Why did you call me an idiot!”

His face was so close .
Aware of this distance, I avert my eyes quickly .
But it was useless . We were even holding hands . We were dancing, our bodies were practically joined . Now that I thought of it, I could feel his breath on my neck . Also, wait . My hands were sweating . No . Charles would notice and–

“Umph!”
“Wah!?”

I thrust a foot out and throw him to the ground . Of course, we were holding hands, and so I lose my balance as well . But that was my aim . Our bodies were now separated . Just like I had planned . And then, together, we both fall into the flower bed like we did once long ago .
Charles immediately got back up to hit feet .

“What!? What was that, Chris!? You scared me!”
“Shut up! I can’t . I just can’t!!”

Unlike Charles, who was now standing, I rolled onto my stomach, covered my face and kicked with my feet .

“Can’t what!? What is it, Chris!”
“There is a saying about three thousand worlds and keeping boys and girls separate from seven! I am a lady! I can’t!”
“I’ve never heard such a saying . What are you even talking about!?”
“There is! There just is!”

Though, it was knowledge from my past life!
I am not lying!
I am not deceiving!
I am not confusing!
After all, I am a genius!

“Really now, Charles . Don’t you have anything to say…?”

I force the words out, all the while laying on my stomach and covering my face .
I am, you know…
I hadn’t realized it at first, but I had practically made a confession of love .
The leaves and stems tickled me . But I didn’t want to raise my face . I couldn’t face him just now . I would rather lie here in this uncomfortable position .
Yes, I know that Charles liked me . I knew that we both liked each other . I knew that Charles was happy about this .
But, even then .
Didn’t he have a little more to give after my confession?

“I do . ”

His timing was so good that it was almost as if he had read my mind .
The words echoed from his mouth without hesitation .

“It’s not that I don’t . I’ve been waiting so long for you to say that . All this time, I’ve been thinking about how I didn’t want to lose to Mishuli . ”

I didn’t know what his face looked like now . I didn’t know what I looked like right now . I was a coward who had fallen to the ground and hid . Charles was surely the honest one as he faced me . The straightforward words he continued to speak smoothly entered my ears .

“It’s the second happiest thing to happen to me, after first meeting with you, Chris . ”

Ah, this boy . Really .

“…You are really honest . ”

I said with a groan that was practically a declaration of defeat .
I was a coward .

He was able to say it so naturally, and here I was, shamefully being tossed around by my own heart .
My head was overloaded as I clumsily got back to my feet . It was strange . I had come here to take a break, but I was ten thousand times more tired than when I had come .

“I’m going back…”
“But…”

He was not happy about it, but I couldn’t continue this . I wasn’t even sure I would be able to don my ladies disguise properly when I returned… But, I didn’t feel like I would last any longer if I stayed .

“What is it, Chris? You’re strange, you know? Is it your third form?”
“Shut up . I said that I am leaving . …Ah, yes . ”

I realize suddenly and turn to face him .

“Charles . I will take off some of this dirt for you . ”




“I don’t mind… But, what will we do about these flowers? It’s your fault, but I have a feeling that I’m the one who will get in trouble for it . ”
“When the times comes, stay quiet and take the punishment and protect me . ”
“What, that’s not fair . ”

The only way I could continue to fool myself was by saying such things
I was incredibly nervous about what I was about to do . Even as I brushed off the dirt from his clothes, I could not look at his face . I pretended to be sulking and looked the other way to avoid his gaze .

“I suppose that is enough then… I’ll do your hair now, so close your eyes . ”
“Mm . ”

I saw that he had closed his blue eyes, then I sighed . It would be a lot easier without those straightforward eyes looking back at me . Now that I had calmed down a little, I look at his face . Seven years old . It was two years since we first met . He had grown, but his face was still chubby and cute . But I was sure that he would grow into a manly person . I recall an image from my past life of his future, and I can see the similarities .
For a while, I did nothing but look at him .

“Chris?”
“Whaha!?”

A strange voice came from my mouth at Charles’ sudden voice .

“Waha?”
“I was just a little surprised! So, what is it!?”
“No! Wait a little longer!”

I couldn’t tell him that I was so captivated by his face that I had forgotten to do anything . With a hoarse voice, I frantically tell him to stay put . I see that he continues to close his eyes obediently, and I catch my breath .
First, I brush off the leaves from his hair just like I had said . I don’t know how many times I’ve touched it now, but it was as golden and soft to the touch as ever .

“Uh . ”

Small things that I had never noticed before were now the cause of embarrassment . But I didn’t hate this feeling . It tickled . This softness was comfortable . It was a different feeling than the one I got brushing Mishuli’s hair .
I slowly raise his bangs . His soft forehead was now exposed, and an odd thought enters my mind .
Charles had said earlier that he had done his best . Then I must praise him .
Just like Mariwa had praised me, I needed to give him a reward . That was all . There was no other motive to what I was about to do .
But…I wondered if he would mind .
A little uncertainty entered my heart then, but my mind brushed it away . It was fine . It was me and Charles . We both liked each other . So it was nothing . …Probably!
I brought out the excuses to rid myself of reason . Then I softly kissed his forehead .
What was I doing? Somewhere in the back of my head, I was thinking about it as if I were someone else . But I couldn’t stop .
For a brief moment I was arrested by a mysterious sensation, and when my lips left his forehead, there was a small sound .

“Huh . ”
“Ahh!”

I realized that Charles’ eyes were opened with surprise, and I jumped back .
It was as if he wasn’t quite sure what it was that had been pressed against his forehead . His hand felt the spot as his eyes blinked rapidly .

“…Chris? Just now–”
“GGGGGggggggooodbye Charles!”

I said my farewells and ran as fast as I could . There were no manners here . What a monumental failure for one who aspired to be a lady .
I was dizzy with embarrassment . But my heart was flying with happiness . My body was pulsing with excitement . The balance of everything was so off, my blood was overheating and ready to simmer .
What was I doing?
I knew that I was not normal . I was incoherent to a level not worthy of a genius, I was being controlled by my emotions .
But, I couldn’t stop it .
As soon as I was away from the garden, I looked up .
The full moon was still bright in the night sky, reflecting my own heart .
My feelings were jumping up high, unreachable like the full moon .
But even so, my heart was fulfilled in a way that flying through the air could never match .