After realizing these things, Nick truly accepted his role.
Ever since the old Champion had put his trust in him, Nick hadn't been convinced that he was the right person for the job.
But now, he accepted it.
He wasn't the perfect candidate for the position, but he was the least unsuitable, to put it mildly.
'I'm not sure if I will ever manage to live up to the old Champion's expectations, but I have to try,' Nick thought.
Ever since Nick had fully transformed into a Specter, the intense pain caused by his overwhelming guilt had almost vanished.
When Nick had thought about the melting people in the Dregs, his heart had beaten faster, and he felt like something inside of him was tearing apart, but ever since he had become a Specter, these symptoms all vanished.
Nick still felt guilty, but it was more on the magnitude of sneakily leaving work 30 minutes early without permission.
And yet, whenever he thought that things weren't so bad, he reminded himself of everything he had sworn to himself and the people he had killed.
He had despised and hated the very people who refused to do anything while having the power, and he swore that he would never become someone like that.
He would never forget what it was like to be in the Dregs, desperately searching for credits for some food, while the rich people in Crimson City had entire forests to themselves!
He had become a monster when he had freed the Crimson Sea, and he was still a monster.
However, he was well on his way to rectifying that.
And he couldn't have any doubts before he successfully managed to redeem himself!
These were the things that Nick always told himself when he lacked the drive to better himself or the world around him.
'And if I ever manage to redeem myself, I won't just stop there,' Nick thought. 'At that point, I have the power to change the lives of over a million people! That is almost 10% of all humans!'
'When I have that power, I have the power to truly change things.I can actually make a difference!'
'I can actually change the world into something people enjoy living in!'
'However, no matter what happens, I can never lose sight of this goal or my ideology! Otherwise, I will just join the endless horde of faceless Protectors and Heroes who just stand around, complaining about not getting another promotion.'
Nick remembered when Wyntor had told him that he couldn't make a significant change in the city.
He remembered when Albert argued with Nick, telling him that he didn't think Nick would be able to make a difference.
Nick remembered when Julian just laughed at his ambitions.
He remembered when Crimson City's old Governor laughed at him, telling him that he wouldn't be able to change things.
Whenever he talked to anyone about this, they laughed.
Nick narrowed his eyes.
'Just because it's impossible for you doesn't mean it's impossible for me.'
'I've improved the lives of over 200,000 people, and I'm not even 10% done with what I aim to achieve one day!'
Sadly, success couldn't come immediately, and things very quickly became mundane again.
After the Knife left, Nick, the Technician, and Ghosty returned to experimenting on him again.
For now, Nick didn't have any big jobs.
While the normal people in the Great Triangle didn't notice any differences, the elite felt a big shift after Pride's death.
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