Our Dating Story: The Experienced You and The Inexperienced Me - Volume 4 - Chapter 5.5

Chapter 5.5: Kurose Maria’s Diary

Runa came over to make sweets yesterday, probably to practice making a Valentine’s Day present for Kashima-kun.

It wasn’t like I didn’t realize it, but making and eating sweets with Runa was so fun that I didn’t really care.

We’ve finally managed to get back to how we used to be, Runa and I.

I couldn’t do anything to make it happen on my own. Runa was the one who opened a new path for us. And the one who gave her a push on the back...was probably Kashima-kun.

I can tell. That must’ve been the case.

I’ll surely envy Runa for the rest of my life. She has things that I don’t.

In retrospect, I’ve looked up to Runa for as long as I can remember. I even looked up to her while I was by her side. Because I loved her. It was natural for us to be that way.

I feel like I got to see myself from those days again. And now I know that even Runa envies me too sometimes.

My life isn’t without its own worth. Why did I think I had nothing?

I have a dream. I have my friends from School T. At home, I have Mom, Grandpa, and Grandma.

And I have my sister Runa back.

I’ve also made new friends—Akari-chan and the other girls.

My life isn’t lacking and I’m not alone. It’s actually so radiant.

Getting Runa back must’ve made it so I can notice all that.

It’s like she’s my wings. When Runa lifted me up and I got a look at myself from above, it turned out I wasn’t all that miserable after all.

Thank you, Kashima-kun.

I’ve finally remembered what happiness feels like.