I Never Run Out of Mana - Chapter 188

Chapter 188

188 . The God’s Last?

“Did you have a place in mind already?”

“Just follow me . Since you’re leaving for good, at least taking a stroll is fine, right?”

“I’ve been here far longer than you think . No matter where I go, it’s the same . ”

“I guess so . Other than the place that I completely destroyed, this place is beautiful . It would be difficult to imagine this place even with all of humanity’s creativity combined . It’s revolting . ”

“Yeah . So enough of this walking about, and let’s… . end this now . ”

“Hey you . Are you doing this because you really want to die?”

“Pfft! What? I’m not sure what you’re seeing that’s making you misinterpret so much, but I’m being serious . ”

“……”

“I want to end this tiresome eternal life . ”

“Any last wishes?”

“Did you forget? I’m the equivalent of your archnemesis . Did you already forget how insufferable I was to humans?”

“That might be precisely why I don’t want to kill you . I guess I don’t want to end your tiresome eternal life that you hate so much? Don’t you think it’s a pretty good method?”

“What the heck . You’re rather vicious than you let on . ”

“Let’s just go a bit further . There is something I want to confirm… . . ”

What I wanted to confirm was the identity of the guide through time and space, Barub .

The place I was walking continuously to was the door that led to the space time tunnel .

Believing that Barub was a peerless existence, I gave them a warning that really wasn’t one .

I had full conviction behind my suspicion at this point, and I had asked Barub to stop causing additional chaos in a somewhat arrogant manner .

However, Barub ignored my words as if it was nothing .

Before Karupedan disappeared, I had asked them to appear before killing her, but Barub was nowhere to be seen .

Was I wrong?

Or was there more fighting to be had?

To confirm that, I was trying to visit them .

Karupedan cut off what I was saying and spoke .

“There is something that I do want . ”

“Hm?”

“… . . ”

“Is it something to do with Gera?”

“… . . ”
“Don’t you, an Unrivaled God, know that better than me that it isn’t possible? All the gods I have killed, I couldn’t summon their souls even using the authority of the God of Death . The only explanation that makes sense is that they have been completely obliterated . ”

“I know . But still, just in case……”

“… . . ”

“Somehow, if it is possible… . . Will you give me the chance to acknowledge my mistake and repent bitterly? Well, I guess me asking this now can seem like hypocrisy or a false front I’m putting up . That can’t be helped . I fully understand . But still… . . ”

“I promise . If I can do so, then I will . But you know, aren’t memories only beautiful when they remain as memories? If two people meet again after saying their goodbyes, then even that beautiful memory dulls away . I don’t think it’s so bad to hold that good memory with you instead . ”

“It’s fine . You can consider that as one of the punishments that I will receive . I beseech you . ”

“I guess you’re not the type to think deeply . I understand . Anything else?”

“Hehe . That’s enough . I’ve already received a huge gift from you that went beyond my expectations . It only lasted a day, and it was kind of a letdown with how you finished the task in a day, but you let me feel happiness and excitement that I haven’t been able to feel while I lived as a god all this time . Since you’ve done as I wished for already, I won’t be greedy and ask for more . ”

“This will be one of the things you’ll come to regret in your next life, so don’t be so happy about it . ”

“Pfft . Is that so? I guess the only thing left is to receive my punishment? Hehe . ”

“I wanted to say this from the start, but stop smiling with such an innocent expression . I feel like I’ve developed multiple personality disorder and get shaken to my roots from time to time . ”

“Heh . ”

In human time, it wasn’t even a full single day, and it was a timespan both short and long .

Both time in the human realm and demonic realm was frozen though .

I came here looking for a new goal to achieve .

Not having anything else I could achieve or strive for was having a profound impact on me .

Money? Power? I had obtained enough of those to overflow, and they were things that I could obtain as much as I wanted going forward if I wanted to .

What I really wanted was something that could get me moving, a goal .

Of course, the most important reason was to stop the demise of humanity .

However, unlike what I had thought, I met with something far bigger in the celestial plane than the emptiness I felt inside .

Gera and Karupedan .

It could simply be that I felt sympathy and pity .

However, this was one of the many emotions that I carried, for I was a human .

Despite my size and power not being that of a human, but reaching the territory of a god, it was true that my mind was that of a human .

It was a mystery even to me why I didn’t want a cruel end for this goddess .

After that, Karupedan and I continued to walk in silence .

Finally arriving at the door that led to the tunnel of time and space, we saw Barub standing in front of it .

Similar to Gera, their body was covered in cloth .

And even though they were wearing a different wear than what they had before in the tunnel, I could immediately tell .

This was the first time that the three of us met together in the same place .

The one to break the silence was Karupedan .

“Huh? Is it… . Barub?”

“Great goddess . ”

“Huh? How are you able to enter into the celestial plane? … . What is this? Barub . Did you tell the human that you wanted to see me die? Is that why you’re here?”

“How could a mere guide through time and space think like so, goddess?”

“Then how did you get in here… . And more importantly, why are you here?”

Karupedan seemed somewhat surprised, but not thinking too much about it, she hurried me for explanations instead .

Looking at her, I answered .

“It’s here . This is where you will die . The place that I’ve been looking for is here . ”

“It’s nothing special though . Dragging me all the way here . Then let’s get this…”

“No . Just give me a bit more time, last time I ask . ”

“Again? Why are you keep dragging this out… . . ”

“Barub . ”

“Speak, human . ”

“I asked you . No . Warned . The moment that my suspicion is confirmed… . . You will meet a madman at a level you’ve not ever seen or heard of in your entire life . ”

“Has your suspicion not cleared even now?”

“No, I’ve confirmed it . And the fact that you’ve come into the celestial plane, didn’t you do so to reveal the full truth? To Karupedan and I . ”

“… . . ”

“You know, the words that you say so often . ‘I am only a guide through time and space . ’ Right? But a guide like that enters another dimension like it’s nothing, the celestial plane to boot?”

“Kuhuhu . I see . Wandering without thinking and I ended up here . The place where everything began for all of you . ”

“Huh? Now that I think about it… . . Barub, how did you come here? I thought that you couldn’t leave the passageway?”

It was only then did Karupedan realize that it was impossible for Barub to be here .

Following that, I began to explain to her Barub’s existence .

“Karupedan . You said it yourself, right? You didn’t know when you became the Unrivaled Goddess . Despite creating everything, you only have a vague memory of it . On top of that, you have no memory of the past . ”

“… . . ”

“You never considered that someone put you in that position?”

“What do you mean… . . ”

“The one you see before you . That’s the one that stands above the Unrivaled Goddess title… . An existence like that . ”

“What? No way . Did you get hit in the head while fighting against Galima? You know as well . That is Barub, the guide through time and space . ”

“Yep . I know . The fact that I know it so well is what makes that much worse . ”

“……”

“It’s the equivalent of releasing a bunch of ferocious beasts inside a pen and enjoying them rip each other apart . They have done something far worse than what you have done, Karupedan . ”

“Barub, answer me . Is it true what the human says?”

Instead of answering Karupedan’s question, Barub tossed aside the cloth that was covering their face .

When Barub did so, the celestial plane filled with radiant light was covered in darkness .

Darkness? No . To be exact, it would be more accurate to say that everything was swallowed up by nothingness .

The light, rapid waterfall, the beautiful melody seemingly coming out of nowhere, the flowers and trees, and even the ground that we were standing upon disappeared .

However, the outlines of the three of us were as clear as day .

Barub, Karupedan, and I were in a glass box in pitch black darkness . Only three of us existed .

Barub’s face that was finally revealed did not have a solid form .

Similar to how smoke or mist rising, there was only a distortion .

It wasn’t letting out a magnificent light or strong aura, but I could sense it for sure .

This was an existence that I had never met before .

Someone with an aura that I didn’t sense even from Karupedan, who was above that peerlessness — an absolute .

Due to the sudden change in the situation, Karupedan was waiting for Barub’s words with a serious expression .

After all, this was probably a situation that was hard for her to comprehend .

It was then that Barub spoke .

“Karupedan . ”

“… . . ”

“How is it to rise to the seat of a god that you wanted so desperately? Did you finally obtain what you wanted?”

“What… . What are you saying?”

“Was that too difficult of a question to ask someone who has lost their memory? Then let me change the question . Did you enjoy the life of a goddess? Did you become hated by anyone? Did you grant the wishes of anyone? Or did you ignore their pleas?”

“Barub… . No . Who are you? Just who are you to ask those questions?”

“The one who has created you . The one who has made everything in this world and blew life into it . The one who also took away your memories and gave you a chance . ”

“Just what are you saying… . ”

“It might be difficult, but it’s the truth . That existence right there is the true absolute one . The absolute existence that stands above you, Karupedan . The one who has put you in your current position . ”

“Don’t… . . Don’t joke around . Saying impossible things like that… . . ”

“Karupedan . You probably expected this already, but you were once human in the past . ”

“… . . ”

“Just from your current appearance alone, one could probably come to that conclusion . However, you said that you wanted to die? Even if it means borrowing the power of a human, you want to end your eternal life? What could be the reason? I had done as you asked . You wanted the power of a god, so I gave it to you, and I let you live an eternal life with the one you wanted to live with . But what was lacking? And just what did you not like about this arrangement? If you want, I could return you your memories . If you’re able to handle it, that is . It won’t be too late to face your end after doing so . ”

“What do you want to do?”

“… . . ”

“You choose . ”

“I thought up to death…… If I’m going to receive this punishment anyways, then it doesn’t matter if I get it now or later, right? Barub… . I’m not sure what to call you now . As with your offer, I shall receive my memories back . The memories of when I was a human . ”

“This is beyond my expectations . Good . I shall do just that . It is what you chose . You will also have to take responsibility for this choice as rightfully so . ”

“Of course . ”

Barub waved one of their hands through thin air .

With the flutter of cloth on their sleeves, Karupedan’s body shuddered weakly and rapidly .

It seemed that they had returned Karupedan’s memory .

After a brief moment of silence and a lack of movement, Karupedan’s shoulder shuddered .

The memory of when she was a human . Since she regained the emotions of a human, it must be that she felt something .

My guess was that her emotions were swelling up inside of her .

It was then .

“AHHHH!”