Chapter 218: Omen (5)
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‘How long has it been, I wonder?’
I hadn’t seen Gu Jeolyub ever since I had killed the First Elder. I didn’t bother searching for him, believing it would be best for me to not see him again.
‘It’s not like I could’ve done anything to help him.’
Should I have apologized?
I couldn’t bring myself to do so. It wasn’t an impulsive act, and if I was going to have regrets, I would’ve never killed him in the first place.
I was quite surprised to see Gu Jeolyub. His face had grown much thinner, he seemed to be going through a very hard time.
‘But I didn’t expect him to visit me.’
Well, I needed to talk to him about some matters related to Gu Sunmoon anyway.
After the end of the Elder’s Meeting, I had been thinking of visiting him soon, so it was unexpected for Gu Jeolyub to visit me instead.
Step.
Step by step, he slowly approached me.
‘...Hmm.’
I didn’t know what Gu Jeolyub would do to me in his current state, yet I didn’t react and simply observed him.
Wi Seol-Ah tried to step in front of me, as if trying to protect me, but I quickly grabbed her shoulder, signaling her not to do so.
“Young Master.”
“Yeah.”
After a moment that seemed to stretch on for far longer than usual, Gu Jeolyub finally arrived in front of me.
“...I would like to ask you something.”
His request piqued my curiosity. It seemed he had no intention of attacking me—not that I would allow it anyway—Instead, he instead wanted to ask me something.
“Ask.”
I granted him permission, waiting patiently for him to start speaking. After a while, Gu Jeolyub finally spoke.
“...Why did you do it?”
His lips shook as he uttered those words.
“Hm.”
His words weren’t filled with resentment, nor was it filled with anger or curses. He simply wanted a reason.
‘I heard that he didn’t leave his room for a while.’
I had heard about his whereabouts from time to time. Since the First Elder’s funeral, he had secluded himself in his room.
“Why did I do it?”
“...Yes.”
“Haven’t you already heard? The reason behind my actions?”
“Yes, I have.”
He must have already heard about it from the Second Elder, Muyeon, or other members of the clan. It wasn’t a small incident, so I was sure it was often discussed in the clan.
“Then why do you ask? You already know.”
“I felt the need to hear it directly from you.”
It was strange.
Gu Jeolyub’s gaze remained fixed on me, his emotions boiling beneath the surface. But even in his agitated situation, he only asked me for a reason.
Of course, he likely chose this option because he knew that he couldn’t harm me.
‘But he’s choosing not to run away.’
Though I don’t know if it could even be called ‘running away.’ Whichever it was, Gu Jeolyub had come to face me directly. With that realization, I responded to him.
“Your grandfather crossed a line that I couldn’t ignore.”
My voice sounded colder than I had expected.
“He not only targeted me, but also those around me. Moreover, he was becoming poisonous for the clan.”
Without pausing, I spoke calmly, my words harsher than my tone. It wasn’t the time to be considerate with my choice of words.
“I took matters into my own hands because I couldn’t let him continue unchecked.”
“...”
“If you were expecting a different answer from me, I apologize, but there isn’t one.”
I didn’t know what Gu Jeolyub wanted from me by seeking me out, but this was all I could offer him.
He stared at me silently.REaad updated stories at n/o/vel/bin(.)com
“I wasn’t hoping for any response.”
“Then?”
“I only asked because I don’t know.”
“You don’t know? What?”
I frowned slightly, puzzled by his cryptic words. What was it that he didn’t know?
“What I should do from now on... I don’t know the answer to it.”
“So you came to me for an answer?”
“No... not exactly.”
I understood that he was struggling with his own inner turmoil, having his world suddenly turn upside down.
However, if he had come seeking answers from me, it was an utterly foolish move.
‘Stupid bastard.’
What closure did he expect from me? What did he want from someone who had killed his grandfather?
It seemed that even Gu Jeolyub himself didn’t have the answer to that question.
After all, he was still just a young boy, not even in his twenties, a teenager overwhelmed by the harsh realities of his circumstances.
I asked him. “Do you resent me?”
“Yes,” he replied without any hesitation.
“Do you seek revenge?”
“...”
He fell silent. It seemed that he wanted to spit out the word ‘yes’, but couldn’t bring himself to do so easily.
“No?”
“...I do.”
“Then why did you hesitate?”
Was it because he was scared to state his desire of wanting to kill a direct blood relative of the clan? That was somewhat understandable, if I were in his shoes though, I wouldn’t have been able to hold back.
‘How could I keep my sanity if the person who killed my family stood right in front of me?’
Though I have some semblance of control myself at my age now, if I was Gu Jeolyub’s age, I wouldn’t have been able to contain myself.
As I wondered how he could control himself like that, Gu Jeolyub responded.
“...Because it would go against justice.”
“Justice?”
Justice, you say? It was rather random.
“If everything that the Young Master said about Lord... about my grandfather is true,” his voice trembled ever so slightly, “me resenting the Young Master wouldn’t be justified.”
The First Elder hadn’t hidden his ambitions. Not only had he manipulated events to ensure his grandson became the Young Lord of the clan, but he had also been scheming behind the scenes.
If all that was true, Gu Jeolyub believed that his resentment towards me wouldn’t be justified.
So, was he having conflicting thoughts because he still harbored resentment towards me? I couldn’t understand.
“How complicated you are.”
“...”
“I don’t know why you’re suddenly talking about justice, but there’s nothing I can do for you.”
Whether Gu Jeolyub resented me or not, whether he wished to take my life, there was nothing I could do to resolve his inner conflicts.
I wouldn’t be concerned even if he resented me, and if he truly sought my death...
‘I’ll kill him.’
I would have no choice but to end his life. There would be no second chances.
The best consideration I could offer him was to not lay a finger on him at this moment.
The First Elder had a funeral, but I knew I wouldn’t be allowed near the graves that held the remains of the important figures of the clan.
They couldn’t afford to let a sinner like me enter.
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